Although Jackson William Leslie Jordan has been the cause of much stress and tension in the actress’ life, he says that he never wanted to scare her in any way.

“In a misguided way I was trying to give her an opportunity to meet me and give myself an opportunity to meet her. I had this feeling of longing for Ms. Thurman and I was trying to explain it. I was not trying to scare her in any way,” he said, as quoted by The Associated Press.

He kept his calm throughout his testimony, willing to answer every question addressed to him. Jordan said he loved and respected Ms. Thurman and he understood how his actions might have been “misguided,” perhaps even “foolish,” in his “quest” to win her over in the last two years. He also added that he kept on being so persistent because nobody had told him very clearly to stop, denying that Thurman’s assistant ordered him off the set of “My Super Ex-Girlfriend.”

 “She asked me if I would like to leave. That was kind of odd. I said, ‘Not really, I would like to have a conversation with Uma’,” Jordan testified.

Jordan was diagnosed as schizophrenic and, while he was in hospital, he sent Thurman 20 letters.

“Each letter opened with a statement saying that I was trying to explore these feelings I had,” he said.

Jordan was also institutionalized in a mental facility in late 2005 after a detective told his parents he had sent Thurman a package of razor blades, referring to a drawing sent by Jordan.  

When Jessica Taub, a prosecutor, asked him if he thought of the actress in a sexual way, he admitted that this was true but he didn’t think it “to be alarming to Miss Thurman.”

“I was overcome by a tenderness and affection for you that I've never felt in my life. I feel that we are destined to meet,” said Jordan, and admitted that his feeling for her got stronger after the “Kill Bill” movie.

Jordan is on trial in Manhattan's state Supreme Court. If he gets convicted, he might end up in jail for a year.