Patrick Swayze admitted the fact that his pancreatic cancer will kill him in two years tops.

In the first interview he gave after he received the terrible diagnosis of the disease, the actor admitted that he was “scared” and that he was going through hell because of his state of health. The Dirty Dancing star opened up about what he has been going through to ABC’s Barbara Walters, who first met Swayze about 20 years ago.

The interview came amid a big effort to market Swayze's series "The Beast" which will be launched on January 15 on US cable channel A&E. The 56-year-old actor filmed even while undergoing intensive chemotherapy and he refused to take painkillers while working on the set. In five months of production, Swayze missed only a day and a half of the filming, a fact that clearly speaks of his character.

The actor’s wife, Niemi Swayze, said it was Patrick’s decision to shoot the series. Niemi directed her husband in one of the episodes.

During the touching interview, Patrick Swayze said he thinks all his health problems began when he drank a sip of champagne on New Year’s Eve in 2007. The actor described that sip as feeling like he was "pouring acid on an open wound."

"Am I dying? Am I giving up? Am I on my death bed? Am I saying goodbye to people? No way," Swayze told Barbara Walters.

He said he does not know how long he will live, but did say that he would like to live long for a cure to be found. However, he was aware of the fact that surviving the pancreatic cancer for five years would be “wishful thinking.”

Swayze said that most people thought he was out of his mind to film his new drama series although since his days of glory, the actor lost 20 pounds, developed jaundice, discovered that he had a malignant tumor in his midsection and a tiny mass on his liver and was diagnosed with Stage 4 pancreatic cancer.

Surgery was not an option, so the three-time Golden Globe-nominated actor started chemotherapy along with the experimental drug Vatalanib.

The actor also told ABC’s anchorwoman that the disease made him think more about afterlife. The situation he is in right now, tests everything Swayze believes in, more precisely, that “there is something unique in all of us that does not die." He added that he was dreaming of a future with a long and healthy life, not one “lived in the shadow of cancer.”

Just for the record, pancreatic cancer is one of the most deadly forms of cancer. The survival rate is of about 5 percent.